Sunday, November 8, 2009

Over there they die from what we buy from drugs

I was reading through the news the other day and there was a section about soccer riots. It made me wonder, some of my friends talk day in day out about soccer and I'd remember in high school when their talks would get heated. Then whenever I said that the sport was shit, they'd make a come back saying "soccer is the world game!". I agree that it is a good sport, it brings people together... but what of all the negativity surrounding it?

- 1994: Andres Escobar; Colombian defender assassinated over own goal
- 2006 Italian game riggin scandal
- Bulgarian soccer players expelled for homosexual activity (I actually lol'd at this)
- COUNTLESS soccer riots over years

Again, with the cryptic posts. Where am I going with this?! To put it in laymen terms; when things get too big, they also get bad. If you've ever heard of "too much of a good thing is a bad thing" then you know exactly what I'm talking about. Should we concerned when something we love gets too much exposure? Of course, because there are always going to be people that abuse the shit out of it. Should we be concerned when too many people start attending the concert of your favourite rapper? Of course, because then people misconstrue their image.

Another example would be the broncos vs dragons game that I went to a couple weeks ago. A fight occurred in the crowd between a broncos and a dragons fan, in this case the dragons fan did nothing wrong but rather he was provoked. I'm a broncos fan and the brawl did entertain me but I felt like the dragons fan was hard done by. The point in this case was that the broncos fan that provoked the guy was a dickhead for doing so; why did something everyone in the stadium love so much have to attract such negativity? Why can't people enjoy something in peace without it going the wrong way?

To quote a man in his lyrics "Good morning, this aint vietnam, still, people lose hands, arms and legs for real"

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Then you only leave space to discriminate

Ever been curious as to how a player in a team sport feels when they’re sitting there on the bench whilst their team mates are out there doing whatever they can to win the game? Ever wondered what happens when a player goes onto the bench after being out there for maybe half an hour? Many would probably consider those benchwarmers to be near useless and out of the game, unable to contribute to the team effort. However, there are a number of things people don’t realise about those that are benchwarming.


Screw these analogies. People on the sideline see things with (what I hope would be) a neutral opinion and see things for what they really are. They get a chance to analyse, so to speak. Though, you begin to wonder; what can be seen from the sideline? We see that there are things wrong with how the game's played (or how people act to their peers) and maybe we're not approaching the game in the best way possible. To be corny... "Whatchu talkin bout Willus?"


* We get told what's good and what's bad, without making that decision for ourselves
* We do things for the wrong reasons. Expecting a good deed from a good deed does not make you a good person
* We don't explore and instead we stick with what we're comfortable with
* Likewise, we don't accept different opinions
* We judge by appearances
* We assume and don't look into things
* We don't take time out for those that we care about
* We are too concerned with what people think of us
* We think too short term
* We develop double standards
* We forget the simple things
* We refuse to accept reality at times and even make excuses
* We dwell on things and don't move on due to pride, insecurity or other reasons
* We are too quick to point out others' shortcomings when not working on our own
* We mistake things for one another, ie: revenge is not the same as justice, kindness isn't the same as loving

I'm also guilty of doing such things. Some of those things contradict/conflict with one another. Perfection is impossible.

Monday, October 19, 2009

My sundown

Welcome to the end stretch of 2009, I’m well aware that this is my first entry in a few months and I apologise in advance for neglecting those of you that enjoy reading my entries (however few that amount may be). However, I’m glad to announce that I’ll be putting in (what I hope will be) an interesting piece here, as well as hopefully blogging more frequently in order to portray my thoughts. Before I start rambling, I’d like to pay respects to those that have gone before us recently.

- Patrick Swazy
- Natasha Richardson
- Eddie Bo
- Andy Hallett
- Farrah Fawcett
- Michael Jackson

So if you’re reading this it may be because I made you come here, you’re extremely bored or you’re just plain curious, thinking “I wonder how 2009’s been treating someone else?” Namely someone such as myself. Usually most people that are already 21 will tell you that your milestone year is meant to be the best year of your life. For those that are still 20 and pending such occasion, it’s easy to understand why. The anticipation that you’ll be spending time with the people you love, having a blast (getting smashed) and celebrating a milestone year that you’ve been in this world, sounds extremely enticing (especially to the pissheads). It’s basically a “time of your life scenario”. However, I believe that life has had an interesting turn of events for me, I believe I’ve had a great year despite it seeming different externally. Instead of partying ridiculously hard always having highs, I’ve had highs and lows. This might SOUND average, but to put it in perspective, for some reason I’ve learnt a lot of things talking/listening to people, some more important than others however, I don’t necessarily believe in all of them and hope that I’m wrong with some.

- In a dispute, conviction only gets you so far
- Humility is the best quality in this world
- Nothing is always as it seems
- Do not always count on the goodness of strangers
- Do not waste time on those that don’t waste time on you
- Laughter is the best medicine and also the best mask
- Bad things happen to good people
- Good things happen to bad people
- If the right outcomes went to those that deserved it, the world would be a better place
- Those that care the least don’t always lose the least but those that care for the wrong reasons/people will lose the most
- Confidence gets you far
- However over-confidence leads to ignorance and takes you backwards
- Too much wishful thinking sends you in the wrong direction
- Ignorant people with heavy conviction are THE worst people in the world
- People that constantly try to force their beliefs onto others are a close second
- “Nice guys” lose due to usually having low confidence
- Assholes don’t lose due to having higher confidence (which I actually believe to be over-confidence)
- Pride and hard work only gets you so far, power gets you further
- Nothing is ever really a waste of time
- What matters most is what you value
- People don't actually know what they want, in varying levels
- No one really does know what they want; the ones that seem to have an idea just aren't as idealistic
- Being nice to everyone is not stupid, however being nice to those that don’t deserve it is
- Two extremities cannot work together
- Living each day as if it were your last brings you to a halt, living each day as if you would regret something won’t though
- Wishful thinking
- Naivety is a quality that should come with a sign

I apologise as I wish I could remember each and every person that said something in there, however if I tried to name every person then the Christmas decorations would look lousy at my house. If you believe you’ve said something in there then credits go to you 

I’d also like to give a silent thank you to those that have invoked my thought process to write up such a fantastic rant. I won’t mention names, but my thoughts go out to you and I wish you the best in the future.

All the best for exams/work to everyone in the upcoming weeks/months!

Friday, June 5, 2009

Gots ta be

I couldn't show you everything real. I shouldn’t be selfish. I let the things in my life affect me too much and I can't do that to someone that I care this much about. I don’t want to drag you down. I need to stop it.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Blog number 143b: I'm freezing

As a kid, I used to compare injuries with my friends and would try to see whose seemed the most painful and therefore making one of us the dominant of the pack. Typical boy school stuff, we would laugh at the one who had the wimpiest injury and marvel at the one that had an injury worth being jealous of.

Through it all, I now realise that of all fractures and broken bones, nothing compares to that of a heart in pain, which is powerful enough to incapacitate someone oozing so much machismo that it causes their chest hair to puff their shirt out.

I'm sorry I called you childish and made you think that your eyes may remain permanently black.
I'm sorry that I said you were irresponsible and made you think that your prospects at good health is something that's not on track.
I'm sorry that I brought your parents into this and had to show that I cared the way that I did, which seemed like more of an attack.

I told you last night; my anger and you don't seem to go hand in hand. My head had cleared after leaving my house, but the emotion that was anger was soon replaced with concern. Running to the bus stop, my mind beat me in a race with questions; "Would I lose her trust?", "Would I lose everything I have with her?", "Would she think less of me?", "Would I lose my chances?". My ground speed ate the dust of the speed at which questions came.

Whilst sitting in the bus, trying to keep myself pre-occupied I realised that it was as futile as my attempts to apologise. My iPod was angry at me today even, I sifted through a 64-song playlist for 5 minutes trying to find the song that I wanted. Was this an indicator that I deserved to suffer? To exacerbate the situation, the device alerted me that its power was low and there was nothing I could do. Reading the book in my bag was out of the question due to lacking sleep, yet sleeping wasn't an option due to my thoughts.

My anger got the better of me, which in turn pushed me out of line. It reminded me that to do this kind of thing was a part of you that draws me to you but it also reminded me of a question that I asked my mum. After my step-dad and her stopped working for several weeks, I asked why they didn't go out and look for work. She told me that after working full-time, I would properly appreciate leisurely activities. Maybe it was because I had to go to court from 8:45 through til 4 that made see it from a different perspective. You have to endure worse EVERYDAY, yet I was itching to get out from the court room at 11 and it was because of my idiotic nature that I took so long to appreciate what my mum meant.

You sounded so happy this morning but I shot it down with my negativity. You called me this morning so I wouldn't be late and because I asked you to. It definitely came off as though I didn't appreciate your gesture, but that's not true. I forgot to thank you for it. You're such a great girl.

It was through the stupidity of my actions that an epiphany came to me.

You don't realise what you have until you lose it, but all you need to realise how much you care about it is for it to be put on the line.

I'm sorry

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